Dear JIBRIL where are u?

07.02 pm alone in the dark. Rain and black wednesday, write this note on my luvely bed in my zone. Dear GOD, please don't stop the rain. Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall, let it fall because i want to feel and enjoy the rain tonight till drop.

This is second note on 2011 and still about one word. i called disappointed.

DISAPPOINTED with all about life. Life is getting harder and harder. The fear about my future is back haunt and dancing in my head. I really don't know what should i do to get my dreams, to get what i want and to kick the BAD LUCK. Argh....

Bondan Prakoso feat fade to black song "bergegaslah kawan 'tuk sambut masa depan. Tetap berpegang tangan, saling berpelukan...." sigh, i don't know how to describe what i'm feel right now. Wanna scream "i hateeee my self"..!! Still unlucky. Really hate this condition. I want to stop complaining about my self, but i can't.

Dear JIBRIL where are u now? Please come to me.... Give me something to walk out from the dark of my life.